this is Greg Hollingshead from the short story
_The Death of Brule_ (with that diacritical mark over the 'e')
in the book _The Roaring Girl_
published by Harcourt Brace 1997:
"...and I wondered if this was still another flaw in my strategy: when
you know you are not who you pretend to be you are
vulnerable to the craziest charges, if they are sincere."

The whole story is pitched at that level,consistent
and perfect
evocation of lower-middle class childhood in the fifties.